A young lady struggling with an eating disorder asked me if I'd write a song about it. This is for Jenny...

LYRICS:
I am a goddess in the making
But that's not what I see staring back at me
The glorious act of becoming
Is losing itself on me, it's losing itself on me

I am the change that I've been needing
Yet I'm feeling powerless to make that change
I am the difference, my own miracle
But I'm still waiting for someone to rescue me
from me

So how can it be that my gravity
Is killing the best in me?
It's killing the best in me,
killing the best in me

I am a phoenix rising,
but I feel pinned down to the earth
I am a beautiful work of art,
but I'll probably never know what it's like to be proudly displayed
someone save me

So how can it be that I can't seem
To bring out the best in me?
To bring out the best in me
To bring out the best in me

I don't know why the rain drops fall so hard on me and I
Don't know if I will reach the sun in time to see it rise
But I will not just lay down, no, I will not be defeated
I'm gonna open up inside and be the air I can breathe,
I'll be the air I can breathe

I hope that one day I make you all proud
But just for this moment could someone believe in me for me
Help me believe in me
So I can bring out the best in me,
Help me believe in me
So I can bring out the best in me, bring out the best in me
bring out the best in me

Words and Music by Sheila Kirsten Hughes
Copyright © 2009 Sheila Kirsten Hughes, Nubzilla Records